I just wanted to send out a little encouragement. God is still in control, no matter how bad it looks right now. If you just stop for a moment and look at his track record in your life, you will see he has never failed you. You have been through things that should have killed you. You have faced situations that should have landed you in a psyche ward. But somehow, God brought you out. It is not time to give up. Don’t focus on your weakness and your disappointments. Find your strength in God. He has your best interest in mind. He wants you to succeed. If he didn’t think you would make it, he would have never let you face it. Trust him and and keep moving full speed ahead! You will succeed in Christ!